“I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.” (Psalm 27: 13-14)
For those of you following the events since my car accident on June 7th of this year, I want you to know that after back surgery on October 1, it is true that I felt a bit like the wind got knocked out of me. Regardless of my fearless, calm and collective self-prior to surgery, I found myself falling a bit to pieces in just a few hours afterward. It was partly due to the medication that I was on and the coming out from anesthesia, and the other part was the type “A” in me screaming to get up and do something about my situation.
I have always excelled in moments of trial, and perhaps I sort of set the goal a bit too high for myself thinking that I could take on yet another book project, another writing contract or another “something” constructive while resting and recuperating in my season of waiting.
It wasn’t until last night when I turned to my husband and admitted that the last thing that I wanted to do was take on something else besides a time to heal. He looked at me with and smiled with an implying grin, “I wondered when you would get there.”
After listening to him, I understood all too well that I had placed expectations on myself that I will not be able to fulfill this side of concentrating on getting well. My spirit cries out, “I am well in Jesus Name…” but I am waiting for the full manifestation of that promise to come to pass. Meanwhile, my faith and my failure to adapt to the situation gracefully have found me undone.
Then I hear a sweet, compassionate voice say, “Just rest. Your job is to rest and heal and to let Me take care of everything else. It’s okay to just rest in Me for a season without producing, without being outwardly constructive. I am working on inward constructive right now. Daughter, rest, and let me strengthen, rebuild, and remold what is broken and allow me for once to do a work without you sensing the need to help me out.” –Father God
Wow---- a double blow to my ego, to think that God thinks that I am trying to help Him out. I guess, I am always trying to reach for the stars regardless of what combat field I find myself in, and always trying to show others how awesome God is in my life. Truth is, I am surrounded by warriors praying and battling for me as I heal. Truth is, God does not need me to make this situation more miraculous than it is. The fact that I am able to sit up and write, walk, reflect, pray and think straight at moments, well, that in itself is a blessing at this time in my life.
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Jane Morin is an international speaker, worship leader, Bible teacher, and award-winning author. Her latest re-release, The Weapons Of Our Warfare is now available on Kindle Books! Learn how to fight the "fight of faith" effectively and snatch up your copy today!